lying in bed nightie and thong slipped off early this morning my hand caressed my mound with its tiny strip of hair while ignoring my locked chastity cage. taking out the anal plug i lifted my legs high and slid the lubed dildo in....while in a waking dream....the thoughts swam through my consciousness...
touching a cock...playing with a cock...masturbating a cock...sucking on a cock....welcoming a cock....getting fucked by a cock...
i can feel it...my feminine persona is expanding more than it ever has...some days it takes over completely and lasts throughout the day and evening. i couldn't help but think such is the life of a t-gurl under the guidance of Dominatrix Camille. She told me when we first began that She would bring out the Woman inside me …..and She is!!!
gurls i believe 'our' Mistress DLC wants me to get to the mental space where i think like a Woman all the time....
whether it's thinking about sex as a gurl ....or posing showing off my body the more feminine it becomes....
still mostly in quarantine at home i live in a feminine bubble. waking up i make my bed straightening the feminine style comforter and throw pillows like a good gurl. ....there are days when i wonder what kind of wife i'd make. I suppose it’s why I like doing the domesticated chores of cleaning and organizing my domicle.
my shower has me doing the feminine grooming habits i've been trained to do. they are now automatic...body wash and cremes...shaving my legs and underarms and anything else that is now hairless and smooth.
some days it's moisturizer other's it's coconut oil...along with P.M. all of it has given me skin that is so soft. i take my daily morning dose of pueraria mirifica...
i know it's changing me...i know with each pill it's making me mentally, emotionally and physically more feminine....
as i said 'my alyssa feminine persona ' is taking over.
of all my bra and pantie sets i have about a half dozen that are my favorites ....choosing one is fun...wearing them all day is even more fun. sometimes not yet most days i am in makeup so i stand in front of the mirror an put on my face. having a genetic Woman give me a recent lesson has brought me deeper into the reality of being a Woman full time.
Emily had come right out and said it...'we're going to make you beautiful...and you'll be able to do it all the time'. foundation...sculpted lines...highlighter ... bronzer ...blush ... eyeshadow ...mascara ...eyeliner...shading....concealing...brushes ...wands...lipstick....nail polish clear or colored....with my hair styled i've found mostly i leave it be and don't need to constantly fuss over it.....the vanity of femininity has overtaken alyssa.
i know i am becoming more of a Woman because of the outfits i choose to wear for the day. instead of going over the top with hyper-feminine 'vegas-hooker-trashy' clothing i pick something that is pretty yet practical for a day where housework will be a primary focus.
i'm quite certain my Mistress is aware developing alyssa's feminine personality is a key ingredient in creating the kind of woman She knows i can be. at some point today i'll read two magazines left by other Women in the atrium of my condo building. old school i know yet 'Woman's Day' and 'Good Housekeeping' will help to reinforce the Woman within alyssa.
for 10 years Estee Lauder's 'Modern Muse' has been my perfume...a spritz on my wrists and neck has me ready with my personal scent.
Mistress DLC is building a girl from the inside out. yes the physical aspect has its place...breast pumps...to acclimate me to the size and shape of authentic feminine breasts...that are in my near future... nipple-suckers to give me the sensitivity that lengthy feminine nipples have ...all combined with the PM...a precursor to female hormones, t-blockers and the world of estrogen.
i'm quite certain my Mistress is aware developing alyssa's feminine personality is a key ingredient in creating the kind of woman She knows i can be. at some point today i'll read two magazines left by other women in the atrium of my condo building. old school i know yet 'Woman's Day' and 'Good Housekeeping' will help to reinforce the Woman within.
i welcome feeling an obligation to stay in touch with Dominatrix Camille...sometimes She treats me like what i am...her pet of a t-girl...a male to be no longer...rather instead a t-girl She is guiding into the life of a Woman in all its feminine aspects....
Mistress has trained me through our communications to be obedient and to listen to Her and act on what She is teaching me. at first it seemed overwhelming yet a year and a half in i have now come to realize i am becoming a Woman with a feminine persona...
deep in my heart i know that i can be all Woman...perhaps better said a trans-woman...with enough hormones and time and sustained effort my physical image will match my fully developed feminine persona...gratefully i know Mistress DLC is lifting me up...elevating me to the higher consciousness of a being a Woman...one day together we'll get there...by then my body will have lost 35% of its current frame...shrunk down to a more feminine figure...along with the mind of a Woman....who knows? ...maybe with a little augmentation thrown in...peace, alyssa
thanks moira and cissy...nice to see and read both of your comments. peace, alyssa
...p.s. luv your pics helenah n you come up with the funniest gifs
HI i am keeping an eye on you all over there and have also been in lockdown etc . We are out and about periodically now but at six feet distancing .Weather has been exceptional so here are a couple of photos outside . Of course i was a business woman but i am now progressing to becoming a CLASS Vegas hooker
.That is what being MYSELF means .....a MILF ,
or this ...a housewife
and a class British courtesan .
Well dear your husband was attracted to me , all three of me aboveso there !
Helenah
xxx