i'd been nervous all day...Dominatrix Camille confirmed that She expected me to have a session with Her. distracted at work i had scheduled a salon appointment to have both my finger and toe-nails done. i knew i also wanted to stop by the make-up counter at Bloomingdale's to pick up some fresh lipstick and perfume. Mistress told me she expects all Her gurls to use high quality products when it comes to our feminine grooming regimen. she was pleased later to hear that i chose to use Estee Lauder make-up and perfume.
as the afternoon went along i was overwhelmed with the feeling that i was preparing for a 'date'...yet i was to be the 'gurl' getting ready.
it was a change in perspective....
it took over 3 hours of primping and styling and applying my make-up before selecting just what lingerie i thought She might like to see me in...
for this inaugural session She allowed me to wear breast-forms....it led to a discussion during the session where DLC told me i would eventually develop c-cup size breasts....
it was only a few days later when i discovered just how much in a change of perspective i would have...my images were put up on the tvChix site...i was officially identified as DarkLady's-alyssa...a slave-gurl in training...it was a public access site...anyone could go there and see me...
i had to reconcile with the fact that i was 'marked' as a t-girl...that a Woman owned me...that i was being trained as a feminine pet of Mistress DarkLady....that my days of thinking myself to be a man were coming to an end...rather instead i was to be put on feminine herbals...beginning the process of having estrogen flowing throughout my body on a regular basis....
my perspective continued to change....i was to be part of the trans phenomena that continues to expand...the more i accepted that a Woman was overseeing my life the greater the feeling i had that i was a feminine being...a transgendered gurl if you will...
i was to be joining those males that had abandoned their masculinity...in favor of living a feminine life...and with it would come typical feminine desires...
a change in perspective...i never realized just how much the femme herbals would affect me...beyond just the physical they've made me more docile-like and accepting....i have a very feminine-passive sense to me in a good-gurl kind of way...
Mistress kept the issue current reminding me of Her goals...not only would i have a change in perspective...
as my body moved from a man's into a more feminine one developing breasts... i would 'beg' Her to allow me to have gender re-assignment surgery....where a vagina would replace my penis....
i should mention the femme herbals have made me near impotent....which is fine...it's best to let the men have hard cocks...besides my panties fit better these days...even when i'm not in my chastity piece...
a change in perspective?.......just smile and say 'yes Mistress'....peace, alyssa
Thank you so much for being willing to share your journey Allysa