the folly of purging...w/pics

the Monday morning arrived along with the inner dialogue making him feel the guilt.

alone all weekend the girlfriend out of town he had started off friday night buying a pair of high heels. the shoe box put in his backpack he next made his way to the intimate wear section of the upscale department store.

having long since figured out his band-size he took the pleasure that came with buying the bra and pantie sets as though he'd been wearing them all his life. it was too hard to resist seeing the baby-doll nightie on display it soon lay on the counter along with the other items.

a curious look by the seasoned saleswoman let him know she knew they were all meant for him.

shopping bag in hand walking by he grew envious of the rows of elegant evening gowns....but on his way to the escalator the discount rack called out...'oh that's perfect...what a pretty hem...on sale and in my size too!'

the buzz from the weed heightened his arousal interspersed with moments of edging he knew he would spend as much time as he could over the next three days freeing the woman within.

monday arrived retreating back to the safety that came with living in his world of male privilage...bra's, panties, stockings, heels, wigs, dresses, nighties dirty magazines... he knew he would have to throw it all away....until the call of the feminine returned as it always did....along with the hidden deep desire to permanently live as a woman.

i can't accurately tell you how often in the past decades just how much alyssa has thrown away purging her 'secret' stash of feminine clothing.

it is likely it would fill a dumpster if put it a single pile...

like others under the direction of their mistress ...

for alyssa that has all ended now well into her 3rd year being under the guidance of Mistress Darklady...

these days...i periodically prune my closet...

for anyone to see...kept neatly organized taking up half my closet...alyssa as an array of different styles of tops, dresses, skirts, jeans, nightgowns and nighties...heels in varying lengths..a half dozen wigs....etc

in my armoire there are 3 shelfs filled with feminine enhancements that include dildos, vibrators, a ballgag, a paddle, a breast pump, chastity cages, bottles of pueraria mirifica, anal-plugs, lubes, perfume a jewelry box brimming with accessories.

there are also 3 drawers filled with intimate wear. my bathroom has half the cabinet filled with makeup and other items in what a woman uses preparing for her day or a night's rest at bedtime.

though i no longer care to even if i wanted to...it would take a good hour or more to purge everything in throwing it all away...

an alpha Woman...a Mistress...a Dominatrix...

it took meeting DarkLady Camille for alyssa to accept she needed to be under the influence of a Woman like her... if she was to address her long held feminine desires...

now calling it 'her gurl-clitty' alyssa has essentially ceded control by way of a chastity cage...within alyssa's mind Mistress DLC mentally is the 'keyholder'.

as docile as a domesticated maid in full uniform...alyssa now carries out every order she is given by her Mistress, Dominatrix Camille.

the Woman blessed with vision it is Mistress DLC's goal...as well as alyssa's now...that her gurl live full time as a woman...

one of many reasons it is why She has me developing my breasts...at some point a bra will become a necessity and not a fetish item to be purged like it was in the old days...

She could have kept me as a male-sub...yet She decided She would prefer me as one of her DLC t-girls....

becoming the kind of gurl that is femininely objectifed and cams for her Mistress..

meeting DLC...alyssa learned she would need to meet certain requirements...on her orders this is the first of 4 pics alyssa put up on a now shuttered site...prior to this i never took any pictures of myself...alyssa now has hundreds to choose from...

alyssa next discovered as DLC's femme-sub ...she was going to be one of Mistress's tvChix gurls...pretty bra and panties, waist-cincher, gartertabs with stockings, polished nails, high heels, fully made-up, well-managed hairdo, posing on her bed as though waiting for an alpha to have his way with her...it served as her introductory chix-pic ...with the declaration Darkladys alyssa 4/26/19

now anyone can freely go to tvChix and see and read about what alyssa is becoming...as Her gurl my social media profile has expanded to the point alyssa has over 5,200 followers on the popular BDSM site Fetlife....put another way that means with 9,000,000+ visitors one who clicks on my page only knows me as a DLC gurl.

expanding daily my feminine persona has taken over...

how powerful and influential is Dominatrix Camille?...hoping it's 'ok' to put up here is one of her former novice part time Cd's...now answering to the name jillian....through the benefits of female hormones a full-time SRS woman..complete with beautiful breasts and lovely vagina!