welcomed into the mystery of womanhood alyssa is learning many lessons. one is that sacrifices have to be made to attain Dominatrix Camille's goals that have now become my own as well. with the help of Mistress i now believe one day i can look similiar to this t-gurl. my breasts will be real and so will my belief in the power of Dominatrix Camille
in many areas it is the release of the old to make room for the new. put another way it is letting go of past behavior while creating a new way of being. Mistress wants all Her gurls to cease thinking and acting like a male...
a sense of superiority to it DLC delights in reframing the habits of a lifetime a male acquires. reversing roles i thought were set in stone Lady Camille is eliminating stereotypical thoughts and long held beliefs. once a crack in the wall of masculinity appeared She kicked the door down to expose those beliefs and habits as imposters.
it has led me to become emasculated to the point i answer to a woman's name. over and over firmly being established by Dominatrix Camille i have abandoned my maleness preferring to accept that 'i am alyssa and my life is now about becoming a woman'.
She no longer wants me to present a hard cock....that's something men have not DLC's gurls. notice the way i've written that statement...a by-product of my training i've already put myself in the category of us meaning t-gurls and them meaning men.
Mistress instead wants us to view a cock like many a submissive gurl does. it should be a sought after desire to feel while pleasuring the man it belongs to.
i've come to find smoothness attractive. it speaks to the power exchange between a Mistress and her sub that the look is part of the emasculation process her alyssa is going through. losing my body hair i've experienced a kind of psychological alteration. a feminine grooming habit it is one of many things that reinforce my emasculation and ascent into becoming a very feminine transwoman...
early on thinking it to be something i could quit i soon had a look of resignation realizing Mistress doesn't play games.....instead i learned i was put on a set schedule for Her gurl in training. helping me understand the basics of applying makeup i can't say exactly when but i discovered Mistress had broken me and i would no longer resist Her plans for 'Darkladys_alyssa'. anyone notice the name-necklace?
a man likes to have a hairy cock yet you see alyssa has a cute and tiny femme-trimmed strip on her mound.
this morning i woke up and felt...( i don't even call it a penis anymore)...how limp my clitty was. DLC wants her gurls to work thru the stages of emasculation...going from a hard dick to one that is soft most all the time. it's why we are regularly kept in chastity cages. being made feminine chastity is a reminder a DLC gurl is to lose the desire to present a hard cock...the former tool of male aggression now being kept chaste DLC's gurls get use to the feeling of being limp while growing accustom to liking it that way.
essentially we have turned our penis's over to Her...She controls our clitty's and alters our masturbation schedule. we are allowed to do it in Her presence because she wants us familiar with the taste of warm cum....so we lick up whatever discharge may come.
the kitten ears a touch of feminine whimsy.....alyssa has just licked the warm cum off her Mistress's picture. i must say it slid down easily and i like the taste now. that's what happens when a formerly straight male has been broken by a superior Woman intent on making a true t-gurl of her protege...
most men want to leave after coming..moving on to something else following release
instead alyssa regained her composure and calmly refreshed her look. i felt a huge surge of femininity doing it. i was reminded by DLC it was something a Female does having developed the habit of always touching up her appearance as a way of acknowledging her vanity. She made me feel so comfortable as we chatted about things of interest for women.
tho i would add like a mother looking after her little ducklings Dominatrix Camille keeps Her gurls in their place. my sisters and i have come to look up to the Woman that has taken our masculinity and replaced it with a feminine perspective. by serving an obeying DLC we learn it will come into play in the real world when meeting other women and perhaps any alpha-men.
it has been happening a lot these last few months....alyssa is adopting to the presence of a woman's bosom. ( apologies, new pics coming soon...i promise)
....different than a man's firm muscled chest alyssa is adjusting to the feel and look and looseness of feminine breasts...into month 15 of femme-herbals continuing the growth pattern this too is part of being welcomed into the mystery of womanhood. after making the last two points of being limp with a small clitty and having boobs lets examine where Mistress is leading alyssa.
Dominatrix Camille wants me brought deeper into a feminine world...pretty...yes...a feminine body...most definitely...weak and girlish looking forgoing the display of a masculine cock looking angry if not menacing....instead the clitty will appear as a harmless after-thought...
in those times the clitty is aroused it will still appear small...
Mistress has neutered many of her gurls through the use of estrogen and t-blockers. currently two of my DLC sisters, miki and trisha rarely if ever have erections. it is something they have grown accustom to and accept as part of the journey towards learning the mystery of their womanhood...
.....in cases where the balls have been removed the female hormones are free to significantly increase one's feminine look and feelings...
from the moment we begin Darklady Camille conditions Her gurls to be obedient...
a loss of agency to it always obeying a dominant Woman like Her fosters a deep level of submissive feelings...it eventually becomes part of what we are and how we act. alyssa has only disobeyed Mistress once in the past year...and that was only because i inadvertently misunderstood Her on something. it speaks to how submissive i am now that i felt deeply penitent and contrite about doing it...
in the reframing of our minds all of what i have brought up changes our consciousness and daily activities to that of a submissive t-gurl. playing with my dildos alyssa is learning to enjoy sucking a cock while increasing the desire to be penetrated as part of my new sexual orientation.
my breasts now only need the fluidity that comes with hormones...think of how nice that will feel when they swing freely while sucking an alpha's cock...
don't these next two look adorable...the one has to hold her limp clitty if she wants to show it...
what a cutie...small and unthreatening her clitty looks so harmless....
the next few gifs are what Mistress wants her gurls to become...a pretty look to the t-girl...her thin waist shows she cares about her figure enough to keep it girlishly feminine...her body marked with femme-tattoos...her breasts pleasingly cute she has learned it's her task to please her dominant...a few tugs on the cock has her give an acknowledgement of a gentle kiss to the head before dropping to her knees...the two sexual organs?...her's a small t-girl cliity....his stiffly erect with nice girth and length...
feeling submissive...the eyes lift staring at her alpha maintaining contact as if to say...'like this daddy?'...
her clitty benignly soft...her weak arms a sign of developed t-girl femininity...that trade off of strength for prettiness...gentle mooing so often common in a gurl as the alpha shows his masculine power through penetration...
maybe she'll do it with other t-girl friends when no alpha's around yet the days of her penetrating are likely over...preferring her new role as a sex-kitten of a t-girl plaything...you know she wants to feel the warm cream as a reward for her efforts of being taken...like a good gurl...
it is what lies ahead for any male turned DLC t-girl...peace, alyssa
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