Dominatrix Camille had made it clear a choice would have to be made.
we had been interacting for a few weeks when i found i was in the gap...i'll call it a space of a few days or so when i had to make a decision. would i take the leap and fulfill the requirements that had been laid out by Her or would i turn away and live with the regret of not doing what my heart was urging me to....
the reality of what She proposed was firmly planted in my mind....i'm speaking about living as a transwoman for the rest of my life. it wasn't going to be some half-baked effort. it would require a primary focus while eliminating the distractions that seem to come when not fully committed.
first off Mistress demanded that all the hair on my body would be removed...the thoughts of doing that swirled around in my brain. i would be required to shave my underarms and legs and everywhere else that needed it. ...and have to keep them that way....
i worried on what others would say seeing me like that with only a small neatly trimmed femme-looking patch on my mound.. then i realized most people are too busy thinking about themselves to give any serious thought about someone else especially a stranger.
She let me know the days of doing what men did was to be replaced with a more feminine outlook. i should expect to experience a certain level of feminine objectification.
i decided i couldn't live without being in Her world...even tho there was so much i 'didn't' know about living a t-gurl's life.
regular body-shot photos?...i wasn't sure what She meant or 'why' they were needed.
i found She was tolerant of my early concerns but insisted i do as i was told. establishing a feminine grooming regimen was important because it created a primary focus on how to acquire the habit of always treating my body the same way any 'other' woman does. the days of a quick shower and towel-off were exchanged with a daily diligence of skin care and moisturizing. within a few days of applying coconut oil and body-lotion i discovered just how soft they turn the skin.
while i fully support Women's rights and the LGBTQ community politically speaking Mistress let me know Her an i weren't in a democracy....there was only one ruler and She was it. in session with Her i once carelessly responded 'ok' and 'alright'. i was immediately reprimanded told to spank myself 400 times.
...'from now on alyssa when given an order by me you will respond with a 'Yes Mistress' and do as you were told.'
i found obeying Her in all matters began building on my submissive nature. i knew i had 'subby' tendencies lurking below the surface only to find She had swiftly taken them to a higher level. a kind of sweetness came out in me knowing someone else was acting as the authority figure directing my life.
Mistress exposed deeply held secrets in me over time...things like wanting to be a bride...the need to become a married housewife...the desire to work as a secretary...the thrill of being treated as a sex-kitten to a dominant...the inclination to be femininely domesticated...
all so unmanly they became part of my primary focus...
keeping in steady contact with 'all' of Her gurls is one way Mistress helps in removing the distractions that keep us from becoming even more feminine....
like tara and some of my other DLC sisters having my nails done at a salon has become a regular thing....
(my last mani n pedi a month and half ago)
my outfits and lingerie and shoes and accessories are a focus i have come to cherish...it speaks to my womanhood that 3 drawers in my armoire are filled with intimate-wear and other 'delicate' essentials along with a closet mostly taken up with a variety of clothing only females wear.
Mistress wanted me to have other gurl-friends knowing in time i'd relate to them...these days i have around 101 on tvChix and another 183 on Fetlife with some 6,900+ followers there....i should add on Chix i have a number of male admirer's that i'll get into in a moment.
Mistress keeps an eye on our day to day behavior helping to maintain our path She also has a long view as to Her ultimate vision for Her gurls.
in the early days i hadn't realized my primary focus would be shifted to viewing men as sexual partners...for me part of it came in the form of having a 'libido control'...
while still sensitive it has taken 3 years worth of femme herbals to acquire the flaccid look...
mingling with nature's estrogen from herbals being kept in a chastity cage almost daily has always been part of my primary focus.....
a DLC badge of honor....the dead-clitty tag
Mistress made it a prime objective...'alyssa you'll love having your vagina...and so will the men you'll be with.'
How much has it changed me...i actually 'like' wearing my clitty-jewelry....i think it looks cute all tucked away made benign....
it is an unusual process being turned trans...i say 'turned' because without Mistress DarkLady alyssa wouldn't be where i am on the path to a more complete femininity....
the gradual nature of having a primary focus has altered not only my body but my mind as welll.... i like who i am becoming....
it is part of Mistress's talent that we all want what She is giving us....having pushed away the many distractions...
the need to feel penetration is just one aspect...
years of training have paid off...
the truth is i enjoy having my chest developing a pair of lovely breasts more so than keeping my male-penis...
i've Dominatrix Camille to thank for preferring to be in a skirt and heels....way beyond a moment's temporary cross-dress thrill it's something i want as an expectation for becoming her t-girl. peace, alyssa
I love this clitty, I love this beautiful body, I love the very beautiful tgirl
alyssa … may I ask what “femme herbals“ you are tasked to use to achieve your flaccid clit look ?
Thanks so much for sharing alyssa, and thrilled to hear you are making such confident progress
All the tgirls here are most beautiful. They're goddesses.