M'Lady Dominatrix Camille!...our powerful Queen of a Woman.
in the early discussions with Mistress DarkLady when i first found myself attracted to Her i learned she has a certain dominant way about Her. first off She never used my former one instead told me i would answer to the name alyssa. i was also informed i was to always address Her as Mistress or Ma'am.
'you say you're a straight male alyssa who goes out with girls...one who sometimes wears Woman's underwear when you masturbate....a part-time Cd you dress up once in awhile ...yet throw away the clothing you accumulate after a stretch of time...that's called purging by the way....but it always returns. you go out an purchase more feminine-wear.'
there was a pause in the conversation. Mistress wanted me to acknowledge what seemed obvious to Her.
'i think you desperately 'need' a strong Woman in your life to guide you. there are hidden desires in you that you're trying to stifle but they keep rising to the surface.'
once more there was a silence.
DLC continued...'what i see is a lovely feminine-submissive dying to be set free...you're just waiting for approval from a Woman like me.'
'alyssa i don't want you to hold back...inventory everything you have making a complete list and tell me all about your reading habits and what sites you visit on the web.'
but for the exceptions of the DLC paddle, the laundry-pins and clips and nipple-enhancers this was some of what i had at the time. i also had wigs and breast-forms and make-up to go with my feminine clothing and heels i'd accumulated at the time.
as for the web i searched for anything t-girl related including hypnotic-sites like the 'mind-mistress' at hypnotic-wishes... https://adult.hypnoticwishes.com › ...
and also the site hyp-hypno.com operated by Michelle St. Michaels...who created a personalized script for me. (not sure if the site is still active)
i let Mistress know i read trans-based stories...some that included being a male-maid and a bride or housewife... on the 'Fiction-mania.com' site
and i bought magazines and books about CD's and Tv's...( i refuse to use the word transvestite.. i think it is so ugly.)... like reading this clip from one of Sandy Thomas's vast collection of novels. i let Her know i had begun to write fiction pieces on the suggestion of a therapist....with the Woman saying it would act as therapy.
DLC pointed out using the 'mind-Mistress' and the other hypno-Domme Michelle St. Michaels was a clear example that i needed a dominant Woman in my life. DLC made the distinction that She deals in reality. saying that all the things i had...point to my need to live as a trans-woman.
'alyssa you need to have a Woman you can look up to in your life. one who will guide you and protect you while transforming you into who you really are.'
'you have a deep need to obey a Feminine authority figure alyssa...someone who will validate your feminine desires...'
it was Dominatrix Camille that decided it...'alyssa i will put you into my 'garden of femininity'...once there...you 'will' blossom into a lovely transwoman'
i like this take on flowers....
'since you have a deep need to serve a Woman alyssa...you will become one of my 'slave gurls-in-training'.'
'i will teach you the finer points about being a Woman.'...there is so much more to it than you realize right now....you may think you know but you don't.'
DLC continued...'being a flower-gurl in my garden i'll reveal your true nature alyssa....you're going to find you enjoy living as a trans-woman.'
'i see you use breast-forms...you are to throw them away...i am going to have you begin the process of developing your own....the more they come in the greater the feeing of femininity you'll have.'
i was shortly thereafter put on pueraria mirifica....natures estrogen i take them daily...they act as a precursor to HRT until i can afford it.
i have watched them grow these past 2 plus years....Mistress was right as She always is...i do feel more feminine knowing i have my own breasts that continue to expand in size....
as we went along Dominatrix Camille wanted to address the issue of 'being a straight male'.
She began by bringing up what i read on fiction-mania...first off she said 'i am not a sissy nor a sissy maid...you are becoming a transwoman not some fetish-toy though we may explore that aspect of femininity'.
She asked me ...'tell me alyssa what is the difference between a maid and a housewife?'...answering Her own question Mistress said...'more often than not the difference is the uniform.'
'from what i can see alyssa... your interest in being a maid....
....is merely the desire to become a domesticated housewife...so to is your seeming absorption about being a bride.'
DLC asked...who are brides?...i replied 'Women' are....she asked 'who are housewives?'....i said 'Women are'.
'alyssa tell me about Women...without going into a deep dive what do they have physically?'
i replied...'their body's are dominated by estrogen... they have soft smooth hairless skin, pretty bottoms lovely breasts and beautiful vagina's.'
Mistress DarkLady was about to do something profound...She was going to accurately identify who i really was.
"knowing now what i do about you and after hearing what you've described alyssa... what you are really telling me is that essentially you want to be a Woman....it is why you've struggled with gender dysphoria and all along have wanted to wear feminine clothing and intimate wear. wearing lingerie isn't about seducing men it is about expressing your femininity....and being a Woman is much more than just the clothing."
DLC pointed out that i had a chastity cage...two actually.
'alyssa i want you in it as much as possible...without putting your job in jeopardy.'
i have come to wear it for varying spots of time near every day for the last 3 years.
this is my latest piece of chastity jewelry....an jeweled anal-plug...
i didn't have to ask her why i needed chastity....DLC told me herself...'My gurls are in chastity so they will lose their attachment to having a penis....which you will call your clitty....you will learn to sit to pee like other women do.' even without chastity i now always sit to urinate.
'Alyssa you have a number of vibrators, anal-plugs and dildos...other than lovely gays who uses dildos and vibrators?'...'Women do Mistress.'
'yes they do...especially housewives....who hasn't heard of a domesticated wife sneaking off to the bedroom after doing the days housework for an afternoon's delight of diddling herself with a vibrator or dildo.'
'when you are playing with your woman's sex-toys do you suck on the dildo?
'yes Ma'am i do.'
'so you are doing what many submissive Women do?'
'yes Mistress.'
Dominatrix Camille set the goal some 3 years ago...
"alyssa you tell me you are straight yet what i really think is you'd like to be with men...you practice sucking on a phallus ...you use vibrators and dildos for penetration...you want to grow your breasts...you've spent time in secret living as a Woman...in fact you've told me you would even like to become a bride and a housewife. with my approval you have a realistic looking vagina-gaff....for now you will have a boi-pussy and you will continue to use it as though it is your vagina.'
"i've decided as one of my slave-gurl's you are eventually going to be put on hormone replacement therapy...you will have a full 'GRS' that will leave you with a pussy between your thighs."
Mistress has brought a clarity to my life as alyssa....i can honestly say i have pursued the trans-woman lifestyle as my need to live feminine full time brings me ever closer to it occurring.
i have developed a number of girlfriend relationships with both genetic Women and other t-girls. prior to covid i had set up with Mistress' blessing me going to a couple different trans-conferences. perhaps as things settle back down i'll be able to go ....
reflecting back ...all it took was believing in Mistress DLC. ....peace, alyssa
bonus gif: when a Woman's girlfriend is talking too much.