strong, beautiful, smart, forceful, quick to have her way...in fact insisting on it...the idea of alyssa becoming trans has always had element of a dominant Woman in the dynamic...as things would have it the last time i had sex with a Woman was quite some years ago.
Barbara knew She had a submissive on her hand. more telling than asking She instructed me to lie on the bed knees up and together hands along my sides. Barbara had her way with me instructing me to lie still the Woman took Her time ensuring Her own orgasm first before draining me of my seed. it was a clear violation of the man-code that said a male must never be mounted by a Woman.
She also detected my feminine-side making hints of turning me into Her girlfriend. I remembered her looking down at me clearly demonstrating her assertiveness not once letting me take to the usual male role of being on top.
things really began in the early years...my mother brought me into a Women's locker-room at a private country club. keep in mind i had 2 older brothers...they went to the boys locker area while undressed with Her...no, there was no oedipus complex or sexual aspect on her part. call it feminine intuition but somehow She knew i belonged there.....let's just say i felt at home with the other Females of varying age.
in the teen years....no doubt some classic Sandy Thomas pieces in the collection...
i discovered Lesbian themed fiction novels...
the 'literature' helped me feel like the femme-sub.
i would masturbate to that theme when the opportunity arose...raised in a family of 7 members it wasn't exactly easy to find that free time.....
treating wanking like i'd found the lost treasurers of the Incas i was dreaming of being dominated by a Female authority figure....
it soon shifted to being feminized by a Woman. the first 'seeds of transitioning' began germinating. let's keep in mind described by the 'ugly' word 'transvestite' society treated anyone like that as perverts with 'Blue laws' allowing for their arrest. as for the church...it's grip on people's behavior finally loosening...i find it ironic while damning such sexual expression they were busy setting the record for the most pedophiles in one institution over centuries.
they left their impressional mark in the form of guilt, regret remorse staining anyone with the scarlet letter of mortal sin being labeled as a sexual deviant.
being pulled into Her orbit it was meeting Dominatrix Camille that swiftly put me in the place that would have me transitioning...
She immediately put me on a feminine grooming regimen. told i would enhance forth answer to the name alyssa also had a subtle yet profound effect.
i was instructed to not only keep my body near totally hair-free i was to trim the hair on my mound like a Woman does.
instead of a femme-'V' look (which represents a womb)....
alyssa was commanded to have a tiny femme-looking patch kept trimmed at all times. actually everything in this image complete with belly-button n nipple-piercings represents where Mistress plans on taking alyssa.....a thin figured look with lovely full-rounded breasts and vagina...what it is missing is 3 Chinese characters (spelling alyssa) to be tattooed on at the bikini line...
as my grooming took over i have found i enjoy the ritual of the act even though it requires attention every day. alyssa realizes perhaps that's the point Mistress continues to make.
shaving my legs brings out the girl in me...
having a body totally smooth with a little fem-pubic hair look i continue to get stares in the men's locker room at the health club...i can only imagine what they'll say when they see me tatted-up with the ink stained body-art of feminine tattoos in front and back.
Mistress next brought my nails into the mix...alyssa has sat still while a Woman has given me a manicure done up in colorful polish. giving in to the emasculation i have learned to keep my nails past their tips.
treated like any other Female this DLC gurl is now considered a regular at the salon i go to...
and yes...i do own toe-rings...
men don't look forward to a hot bath with oil beads and calming lotions yet alyssa does.
while work requires boi-mode (one day hoping to have a job where i can be accepted as a trans-woman) the vast majority of my waking and sleeping hours are lived strictly as a t-girl.
Mistress Camille has subtly and steadily moved me into being a gurl....She has made it so i relate to others as well. in our time together i have been conditioned to accept my Feminine life.
as covid departs the next level of my journey is to find t-girl friends i can hang with...
beyond the many i've acquired on social media sites having the in-person experience of authentic gurl-friendships will further pull me into my feminine life. i luv how the more seasoned one seems to be protective of what appears to be the 'new gurl' to their social circle...what gorguous legs hmmm?.
i like seeing tall gurls...it makes me more at ease regarding my own height.
a shout out to having a matriarchy one thing that remains is the feeling of deference towards genetic Women...it feels appropriate to acknowledge their sense of superiority Mistress has developed within Her alyssa...
editor's note: the t-girl in the more Risqué short-hem cocktail dress to Her conservative look.
editor's note: again a more revealing tight black leather mini-skirt look. the t-girl seems quite passive to Her domina's look of a confident smile clearly pleased to have a pretty thing as her spouse.
through Dominatrix Camille alyssa has learned to say 'i do' to whatever she asks of Her gurl. ...peace, alyssa
bonus: Mistress subduing masculinity pic