in the beginning some 3+ years ago it felt like it happen seamlessly. in one moment i was just a curious man perusing a 'Femdom' website ...and in a display of submission the next thing i know i was answering to the name DLC's alyssa sending off a few pictures that 'my' Mistress would put up. below is the very first image i ever took dressed femme. part of me was sacred knowing someone else...especially a Woman was now controlling the flow of what would be my development into a t-girl.
it's my belief t-girls aren't truly pretty up to the standards of Females when the first commitment is made. at least that was how i looked. oh sure there is a hint of feminine potential yet masculinity still shows itself....even when i was dressed girlish.
that's the thing about becoming an authentic t-girl...Women has a whole pay close attention to every detail of their femininity...where as a man often misses the little things. take painting your nails...as a man i did a sloppy job often leaving polish past the edges onto the skin of my fingers. a Woman would never let that happen. it would be meticulously applied with precision.
moving to the popular site tvChix was a true game-changer. the day i saw the picture Dominatrix Camille selected of Her alyssa i felt both exhilarated and frightened...what would people say if they knew?...what would happen if someone i had known saw me?
being a male logic still applied...i figured if someone saw them then they didn't get there by accident...that they too most likely had an interest in a t-girls world otherwise they wouldn't be there.
i didn't realize in Her wisdom Mistress Camille was putting us in a community of t-girls for a reason. that there is a comfort in being with numerous others like us. the phrase 'you are not alone' comes to mind.
leaving the impact of Mistress's program to the side for a moment something else was also going on...interacting with other t-girls i was adopting a feminine mind-set...i soon saw myself as a gurl with the corresponding interests of a Female.
it was subtle but my grip on masculinity was being eradicated...gradually going away the more i spoke with other gurls an accepted i was like them.
the more i got to know other gurls on Chix the more i took to thinking like a gurl...we'd talk about dressing and lingerie...and of course shoes. we'd also talk about makeup and hairstyles...it wasn't long before discussing men became a topic as did being on female hormones.
i was coming to learn a t-girls world is such a sweet surrender...
it was during this phase of getting to know other gurls that i first truly considered what having a vagina might be like...
Mistress was smart enough to have planted the idea in my head as my submission to Her increased...She made sure i saw some of Her gurls that She had taken to full gender re-assignment surgery..
feeling quite similar in my body-image....seeing the before...
and after of Ida ...made a huge impression on me...
it was a concrete example of a former man that had surrendered his cock and balls to Mistress having them replaced with a vagina on a feminized body...
Mistress puts all Her gurls through it....a shift occurred i no longer had the strong attachment to my penis...instead being regularly reinforced i viewed it as my clittie...
making friends on tvChix it became easier talking about men as the opposite sex....
i have found i like getting aroused viewing them that way...
it has given me a fresh perspective on my sexuality...it is a confirmation that there is a liberation in my submission....
put another way... in learning to submit to Mistress (knowing She will always remain #1)...i have learned to submit to men....
i suppose i should add other t-girls has they have hit on me too....although i'm sure we'd all want to be the bottom...
on the topic....submission to Mistress has also made me very deferential to other Women...
more than a few can already tell i have a feminine persona...
i've stopped trying to hide it...
i can't speak on submission without mentioning being in chastity and the fact that a Woman has commanded me to be in it....
in bra and panties and heels i wear it around my home all the time....being in chastity feels as natural as wearing my lingerie...
we should bring up being plugged...that too is a regular thing....
what i hadn't counted on yet Mistress knew... was how much being plugged, collared and wearing a chastity cage would bring out my femininity...
for alyssa the liberation of submission allows me to be as feminine as i can be....the standards of living up to what a man is has been replaced with a deep desire to live as the Woman Mistress is making of me.......
in the years of being with Mistress grooming me i've developed a gentle feminine touch...i can't tell you the last time i lifted a weight ...actually i was forbidden to by Mistress DLC...2 and a half years of femme herbals have helped to produce my arms becoming weaker...
they won't be able to prevent me from being man-handled...
it's another reminder as this male found out... authentic feminization by a Mistress is real...her name is wendy these days...
his wife became his Mistress...and She put her husband on female hormones...
along the way She took the name Mistress Kayla and altered his sexuality using chastity and penetration...
all of my growth into a t--girl has occurred without being on estrogen and t-blockers...when the day comes....an it's coming soon....i won't be able to say no.
by then i'll want everything that comes with being in a gurls-world....
can you picture it?....months not weeks of dieting have finally given you that thin tapered waistline you've always dreamed about...the boobs a gift of estrogen...your femininity....well Mistress was so crucial in your full development...delightfully wet you feel it slipping into you...now you know what a cock feels like when it starts pulsating....
hmmmm.....slave gurls in training...just what Mistress DarkLady said we would become..... peace, alyssa