Fears & Roadblocks

good evening MIstress..one fear and roadblock i 'use' to have before gratefully meeting You Maam and being accepted as one of the gurl's in Your garden was having my nails done.

i just got home from having an hour and a half appointment where both mani and pedi were completed with a pretty red color.

it is because of Your guidance in my life Dominatrix Camille that that roadblock has been removed. what once was a fear is now a joyful display of feminine behavior that i have You to thank for.

why was it done?....for one because that is what gurls do.... and another is i always want to look my feminine best for my Mistress.

i may not being walking down the street with her holding my hand yet how i conduct myself and i how look represents Her. having colorful nails is one small example and a reflection of the wonderful impact Mistress DLC has on my life.

a third reason is tomorrow when She sees and judges my look before our session begins i want Her to know that my appearance pleases Her. i have set aside near 3 hours to get ready for Her. not a quick brush of the hair and merely slapping on some lippy rather it is a demonstration of my commitment to all she brings to my life.

lets face the truth...Women are superior and more highly evolved. Female's have known this all along.

any gurl lucky enough to have the kind of Mistress Dominatrix Camille is should try her best to please her Mistress.

Her pet and slave gurl in training, alyssa.

My roadblock is that I have a partner with whom I am love with, however, having been dressing with her support, for some 20 +years, I find that with Mistress Darkladys tuition and support that I should be female and it is very difficult to go round this road block. It is interesting that through the years I have always been happier in the presence of females, loving their talk, ideals interests and there lifestyle. I do not have any male close friends but have at least 12 lady friends who know of Moira and support her. I have regular body waxes massage, pedicures, manicures, Eyebrow trimming plucking and tinting plus my eyelash tinting. I am very grateful for Mistress Darklady opening the door to real happiness xx

Supporting my writings in a previous comment. A previous fear that has evaporated following my regular visits to my beauticians. I have my finger nails, after a manicure, painted clear in colour, base coat followed by two top coats clear which I can top up once per week, so that you obviously see that I am wearing nail varnish, all be it clear as they shine. Guess what, several ladies have commented how lovely, 'a guy who looks after himself.' with pride. Also my toenails are now painted currently a Reddish Pink. I feel great and my partner approves. Thank you Mistress for helping me remove this fear I've always loved nail varnish since a small child when I used to crayon them red in colour. xx

A different roadblock and in built fear was that during my tuition with Mistress DLC we had discussed men and relationships with 'girls.' I am not that bothered about being with a man, but I have admit that having reached a certain level of femininity the thought of moving forward with a male (not a tgirl) became apparent from my tuition and needed to be checked out as directed by Mistress DLC. To this end so far I have completed safe O and have yet to try safe A. However, many men on TVCHix, appear to be there as some form of fantasy. Engage, tease and walk away and when a meeting has been happened and they have been satisfied, I have been left high and dry. Making love with a tgirl is deeper and mutually satisfying, in my experience to date.