alyssa is on feminizing herbals...into my 9th month i have taken them everyday. i look on them as part of my daily habits that are among other things adding to my developing feminine persona.
slowly but surely my breasts are taking on feminine definition. the truth is i am moving into that mental space that i have accepted i will have the breasts of a woman one day.
taking the tabs every morning has me getting use to the idea that i will eventually be regularly using female hormones the same way i do the pueraria mirifica. in some way the PM dosages act as a physical and mental and emotional reminder that it is intended that i live as a feminine t-girl.
i was going to say 'woman' but to accomplish that female hormones will be necessary...do they work?....below is a clear example that 'yes' they do work.
given the gift of hormones....will completely change alyssa's attitude and outlook. it is a definitive statement to the world that alyssa is a woman ...or as close as i can possibly be to that.
expanding every day my feminine persona has a certain gentleness to it in a womanly kind of way. it is as though what i think the kind of woman i'd like to become is emerging....
part of me wants to present as a lovely wife....
someone who is kind and caring and happy to be domesticated...
i have a very non-threatening side to me...one that likely will give in to a more dominant person should they be in my life...
currently that person is my Mistress DLC...yet from what i can tell eventually she likes 'Her' gurls to move on while i assume staying connected in some way to the Woman that has brought them to live a life in the Lady pond...
under DLC's guidance...being forbidden to date women i've long since stopped viewing females as objects to be fucked...instead i have taken on the perspective that it is alyssa who will be the one getting shagged...since that is the case i now want to present as a pretty and attractive feminine being...it is why female hormones will be necessary if not essential...
up until meeting DLC clothing and lingerie were just a means to an end...i would use them while masturbating yet once over i would run back to the safety of the male privilege world i lived in...
under Dominatrix Camille intimate wear and women's clothing has become things i regularly use.
Mistress Darklady is also cultivating a fun 'kinky' side to her gurl...
learning to obey my Mistress DLC...has brought out a sense that all women are superior and must be treated accordingly by Her gurl alyssa...
what better way to acknowledge Female supremacy....
in my every day life....
then to become like those i seek to emulate...albiet it as a chastised t-girl...
what started out as a curious interest to learn more about female domination has turned into a reality...
the more feminine i become the more i look to Dominatrix Camille as my superior...
the other day i went shopping and picked up a new top..after trolling the aisles filled with bras and panties and other lingerie. today as i write this i have the new top on over a cute looking black lace trimmed bra.
it speaks to how much of an influence DLC has become in her gurl's life that alyssa now shops exclusively for women's clothing, accessories and intimate wear....
i've gotten so used to the tactile feel of softness that comes wearing pretty clothes...
having said that..when the day comes that i'm told it's best i start taking hormones i will obey Dominatrix Camille...
my obedience to Her comes without questioning...She says...i do..it is that basic...
i know the female hormones will bring out even more the submissive and playful girlish side that exists within Her gurl alyssa...
the day i walk out from my favorite beauty salon with a new cut and style i'll know i have become the kind of woman Mistress DLC's knows i can be. (i already know the salon and stylist...her name is Emily at the Posh Beauty bar and salon...and she let me know she likes doing t-girls.)
just some thoughts from a gurl that is walking closer to the world of a woman that awaits her...peace, alyssa
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