perfume...the feminine scent...the womanly fragrance...the touch of it on naked skin after a spritz put to it...bringing with all that it implies....for a t-girl.
my personal scent is from Estee Lauder's 'Modern Muse - Le Rouge'.

alyssa has been wearing it exclusively for the past 13 years....
this morning after shaving my legs and underarms finishing up taking my shower i sat naked on the feminine looking comforter of my bed. slathering on the body lotion i found myself looking at the frilly pillow-shams. all my bedding is that of a woman's.
seeing the ruffles made me think of the many things that remind me of my feminine world i live in so much of the time. the soft texture of the foundation on my face i slid the lipstick across my lips leaving behind the desired color and shimmer. just for the fun of it i slid my lips on the flesh-tone dildo a few times. i always keep one of them under my pillow. yes i have many...a t-girl is allowed to isn't she?
a glance at my nails buffed in clear polish all are past the tips carrying an oval contour. i next picked up the large bottle of Modern Muse. following a girlish shake of my hair...a spray to the inside of my wrists and between my breasts had me closing my eyes taking in the fragrance.
a surge of femininity flowed through my body...every morning i make sure i feel this feeling...and that is when i take my daily dosage of 'PM' feminizing herbals knowing my femininity is spiking....
...so smooth my soft naked skin...the feel of lipstick...my dangling hoop earrings..a pretty bracelet or two...the thought that 'i know' i am developing breasts..my little puff of femme-hair on my mound....it all is adding up making me more of a gurl each passing day.
yet wearing perfume is near the top of the list of feminine things i do and feel.

being stuck in that place between not being out (for financial and covid reasons as well)....and living the life of a an outed t-girl i've had times where my feminine side has been noticed though still in boy-mode. forgetting i'm wearing lipstick is one and so is having the scent of perfume on.
Mistress DLC has assured me one day it won't matter...i'll be a totally out t-girl focused on more important feminine things in her gurl-world.
remembering i came to Her...like a caged pet....i'm aware i am being trained...by the best Mistress i would add...






trained by a Mistress...that knows exactly where she is leading Her alyssa...

Mistress DLC could have had me kept as Her male submissive...

yet seeing the feminine potential in me She decided She would prefer me as a t-girl in Her stable of DLC gurls....Mistress then told me to write Her a letter telling why i should live full time as a woman....

it all came spilling out in a heartfelt letter...the actions of a part-time novice Cd...all the moments of crossdressing primarily for masturbating....spoke to a deeper desire within to live as a woman...
Mistress DarkLady doesn't do things half way...since She decided i would live as Her t-girl then Her alyssa would being doing it going all the way....complete with mental, physical and emotional changes that came with being a full time woman....with everything that that implies.
does a man use feminine perfume?..of course not ...yet like a frivolous t-girl carrying her collection of balloons on an open road DLC's alyssa does...

the longer under Dominatrix Camille's direction i've learned she has a vision for Her gurl....


maybe it's just the t-girl in me but why do men always forget to take off their socks?...

while i may not always see it...it is as though She knows what Her alyssa can be and how together we'll get there..aware of this....it helps gets me through those moments of doubt...

one day i'll be sending Her a picture of me and how i look with my breasts...totally confident in who i have become...a pet of a slave gurl in love with her Mistress DarkLady Camille. peace, alyssa

Thats so beautiful and true Alyssa you have a brilliant mistress to guide you to your true self you serve her well she must be proud of you