the slave collar...
it seemed to have happened almost effortlessly...with Amazon the package arrived a day after it was ordered. within an hour i was putting the slave collar on ready to show Mistress. 3 days earlier i sat while a Woman pierced me ears. we talked about studs and wearing other styles like 3" hoops.
the 'toys' began to accumulate...all of them were designed to further my emasculation..
like so many things Mistress expects of Her gurls i soon grew accustom to being collared. a Woman was directing my life and that's just the way it was.
i soon came to understand how talented Dominatrix Camille was at creating a feminine state of mind. when She linked my femininity with acts of submission binding the two until being submissive was part of my feminine persona...it was the gateway to even deeper transformation.
as we moved along with Her as the authority figure... we'd talk about things of feminine interests woman to Woman....being a girlfriend to a man...She knew it was a turn on for me so she brought up being a bridesmaid, a bride or a wife...while pointing out men don't want to be in wedding gowns...
over time the more we'd talk like that... all these hidden feminine desires came pouring out...what it was like to live as a woman...how different 'we' are from men and what they like...
there was the discussion about outfits and lingerie what kind of hairstyles She'd thought i'd look good with....my feminine grooming habits had become well established. i simply hated not having my body smooth and soft and hair-free..of course as the months and years moved along i had accepted the changes that comes with having natural estrogen helping reframe my body...
Mistress didn't dwell on it but we'd talk about men and having sex with them...i still remember when She told me i'd love the feeling of having a cock pulsating inside me....
i can't say exactly when but Mistress had given me a feminine state of mind that clearly had me feel separated from being a man like i'd once been....once that happens you view yourself differently....you're not the same person any more.
it was like She was there whispering in my ear...that sucking a cock feels good....
Mistress said having a prick in my mouth will make me feel even more feminine...
while it is an acquired taste...
there's something about having cum in your mouth that makes you feel especially girlish....
wearing lingerie had become automatic....it just doesn't feel right not having my bra and panties on...
oops...a work call..have to run...peace, alyssa