it's been happening again...obsessing...w/pics

this morning i found myself doing it again. lately alyssa has been obsessing over developing her breasts. in Feb i will be entering my 12th month on pueraria mirifica. i really need to get some new pics posted to show the latest development.

there is contour and definition...where once there was none. from what i can tell the way the slope is developing and how my nipples sit crowned on them i think i'll have a nice looking pair of pretty breasts as things move along.

still struggling at losing weight should i find the resolve to lose a good 40 pounds or so will give alyssa the tapered look of a thinner waistline and add to highlighting my chest.

still a ways off this summer it will be difficult to hide them. i'm trying to imagine what it would be like to be in a low v-neck top. for now let's call them an 'A-cup'.... people will see them...even as 'A's'... for what they are...

and my nipples too...helped by nipple-sucker's Mistress has me using regularly...they are becoming more pronounced in their look and feel.....

the PM has also given me a gentle more feminine feeling as i go about my day. there is a lovely calmness i've always attributed to females that is rising to the surface from within me. i've noticed a more slower pace to how i walk an act.

in some ways it's like i've accepted that alyssa wants to have a body that presents as pretty and feminine as her mind and thoughts are. i think we all know what i'm talking about....that mental space that says...'i'm not in a hurry and have a look..i hope you like what you see'.

i luv this bra...isn't it the cutest thing....i'll admit it...i have a thing for ruffles and bows...

the mind-body connection being established from digesting PM and using breast-pumps to pull blood to the areas...as my breasts continue to take on form what is missing is what estrogen brings with.....the milky fluidness only female hormones coursing through my system will produce....

this is what i mean by the benefit of losing weight....a thin waistline not only looks nice it also let's ones eye drift higher to see the prettiness breasts have...

alyssa has already grown use to being hairless...vowing never to return to the old look...i now want to be thin...i also want to have thin weak looking arms as well...the kind that on first glance offer no physical threat....

i can't say exactly when...yet if my boobies keep on the way they are going it won't be too long before alyssa needs a bra...as we all know ....that is a game changer....in some ways it's like being welcomed into an exclusive club...the uniquely feminine gathering that has every member wearing a brassiere....old school i know but remember when that was what they were called by some.

like other males take for granted... i won't be able to go topless this summer...yet with a feminine mind-set i can imagine what i'll be showing off if i'm told to lift my top up.

growing my breasts is subtly yet firmly pushing alyssa towards the day of just coming out...once that occurs i'm certain my girlishness will cascade...and i'll be free to act like how i subconsciously already want to...