trust comes before obedience...my femme-submission is earned. Mistress DLC is the Woman i 'want' to submit to....gratefully under Her tutelage i have learned She is worthy of my devotion.
i look to Her for guidance...alyssa has bared 'all' to her...i believe Mistress is a capable Woman who can fulfill me, discipline me and yes even protect me. one reason i know this is because i view the world through a feminine perspective that hadn't existed to the extent it does now under Her.
rarely using a heavy hand or harsh words to describe using Her authority...Her leadership had brought and kept me in a gurls world.
as my Dominatrix Mistress Camille talks to me...not with me. the difference is She comes from a place of superiority and knowledge...and me as Her willing protege. i know my place ...and do as i am told.
with or without kitten ears and my slave collar... She calls me Her pet....
a virtual pat on the head She lets me know i'm Her good gurl when i've met her expectations....that says something about both Mistress and Her gurl alyssa.
spanking hurts...during our sessions i am forced to count well into the 100's while she looks on. is that something a manly man does?..No...is that something a t-gurl does?...yes if she is being trained into womanhood by Dominatrix Camille...
a dark redness to my ckeeks well after the session has ended i can feel the effect...at times humiliating the pain helps break me down and reform me...while reframing my perspective...to that of one who now nurtures her femininity.
how much as alyssa's outlook changed?...i now want...and need to be a woman...one who embodies femininity....truth be told ...a pretty woman that has a happy and fulfilling life perhaps even as an attractive housewife. i can recall being with a female friend in the kitchen of a friend of hers. no loud shouting as natural as ever she simply put an apron on me as the three of us went about the kitchen work each wearing a feminine apron....treating me as 'one of the girls'....later that evening back in her home in her bedroom 'she mounted' me.
as my Mistresses submissive i grave structure...more than a set of rules consistent behavior comes through structure and discipline.
an example of my structure: i wake every morning...do a meditation devotional to Mistress...followed by my feminine grooming regimen...often now mornings are spent in just bra and panties and heels as i do some light housework. thinking of Her I'll slip into something pretty yet practical and attend to my duties on the forum page. since March near every day i've put something of interest up.
i regularly check in with Mistress. i can think of the last i disobeyed Her....yet worry if i may have done something wrong without realizing it. She knows what to expect ...
....and alyssa knows what is expected....seeing some of my DLC sisters had one i bought a bdsm ball-gag without being told....hoping to please Mistress. it was done in a demonstration of accepting my submissive training as her pet of a gurl.
i trust Mistress DLC...jillian, ida, nikki, natasha Her record speaks for itself...she has taken plenty into a life lived fully as a woman complete with vagina and curves...because of Her efforts in training me i always strive to do things that will bring me closer to being a woman.
recently i went to an estate sale...was i at home watching sports ....no...instead bargain hunting i was out looking for things like clothing, jewelry or other girly items that might enhance my sense of femininity.
i was looking at trisha's page on femdomina...wonderful display the gurl rocks... i noticed she like other DLC gurls i've seen was posing in a slave position in a few pics.... shown in the picture above as 'Nadu'. learning the different poses is something i need to do.
as part of my structure i wear my chastity cage often...
this was just too sexy to pass up...i am now used to wearing my anal plug frequently....
a butt plug prepares both the mind and body....for penetration
here is alyssa...powdered and perfumed....pantied and plugged...on display
just some thoughts on the purpose and value of structure....under the direction and guidance of Mistress DLC. peace, alyssa