reading cissys recent comment gave me reason to pause and reflect, since becoming accepted by Mistress DLC as one of Her slave gurls in training so much of my perspective has changed. i now view myself as a transwoman in the making. one who knows her place is under the direction of Dominatrix Camille.
for example when i ready myself for one of our sessions it takes me near 3 hours of preparation. the days of a quick 10 minute male shower are long gone. filled with moments of primping and preening and uncertainty over how pretty i can make myself i view it as getting ready for a date with a Superior Woman who i hope will approve of my appearance.
shower, shaving, moisturizing are followed by great attention to detail. does my makeup look nice..is my hair done just right..does it have a bow in it..are my lashes curled enough..should i use more mascara (can a gurl have too much mascara?)..what bra and panties should i select..would Mistress prefer to see me in black or pink thigh highs..what pair of 4" heel 'fuck-me pumps' should i have on..will i remember everything She is teaching me..knowing She does everything with a purpose in mind do i know why i have the spankings..are all the things i have on or in or ready to be used out..my paddle, my dildo's, my anal plug, my chastity cage...flustered and concerned i wait for Her appearance hoping She will find me attractive and pretty and eager to be with Her.
kind, gentle, playful, sensitive, sexually appealing, docile, attentive quick to listen, obedient, sweet, femininely attractive, deferential all are feminine traits i once use to look for in a Woman....now they are something i desire to display in becoming Her gurl.
one thing is clear Dominatrix Camille is the authority figure in my life. i created a handmade sign to welcome her as way of acknowledging this.
to show how much she has altered my thinking on another social media site and i say this with no intent to impress and with a sense of humility i have acquired over 2300 followers. i now am regularly propositioned for sexual gratification. simply put males find me attractive in a feminine way and want to fuck me and also give them blow jobs. Mistress DLC has told me to welcome this and should view it as a likely outcome of becoming a transwoman. Dominatrix Camille has let me know i will come to enjoy feeling a cock pulsating inside me.
while not on female hormones yet we have discussed HRT as well as SRS. using breast pumps and nipple suckers Mistres has told me my nipples are developing nicely. She also sees me as a 'c-cup'.
should one day i look down and slip my fingers with their painted sculpted nails inside my panties to touch my own vagina.....with my feminine light within burning brightly i will close my eyes and think of Dominatrix Camille.... knowing it was my Mistress DLC who gave me the gift of femininity. peace, alyssa p.s. cissy if you happen to read this i wanted to add you have a lovely appearance and your nails are to die for. i would politely suggest it looks like it's time to start shopping for some 'clitty' jewelry, a metal chastity cage often brings with it a docile level of contentment.