reading cissys recent comment gave me reason to pause and reflect, since becoming accepted by Mistress DLC as one of Her slave gurls in training so much of my perspective has changed. i now view myself as a transwoman in the making. one who knows her place is under the direction of Dominatrix Camille.
for example when i ready myself for one of our sessions it takes me near 3 hours of preparation. the days of a quick 10 minute male shower are long gone. filled with moments of primping and preening and uncertainty over how pretty i can make myself i view it as getting ready for a date with a Superior Woman who i hope will approve of my appearance.
shower, shaving, moisturizing are followed by great attention to detail. does my makeup look nice..is my hair done just right..does it have a bow in it..are my lashes curled enough..should i use more mascara (can a gurl have too much mascara?)..what bra and panties should i select..would Mistress prefer to see me in black or pink thigh highs..what pair of 4" heel 'fuck-me pumps' should i have on..will i remember everything She is teaching me..knowing She does everything with a purpose in mind do i know why i have the spankings..are all the things i have on or in or ready to be used out..my paddle, my dildo's, my anal plug, my chastity cage...flustered and concerned i wait for Her appearance hoping She will find me attractive and pretty and eager to be with Her.
kind, gentle, playful, sensitive, sexually appealing, docile, attentive quick to listen, obedient, sweet, femininely attractive, deferential all are feminine traits i once use to look for in a Woman....now they are something i desire to display in becoming Her gurl.
one thing is clear Dominatrix Camille is the authority figure in my life. i created a handmade sign to welcome her as way of acknowledging this.
to show how much she has altered my thinking on another social media site and i say this with no intent to impress and with a sense of humility i have acquired over 2300 followers. i now am regularly propositioned for sexual gratification. simply put males find me attractive in a feminine way and want to fuck me and also give them blow jobs. Mistress DLC has told me to welcome this and should view it as a likely outcome of becoming a transwoman. Dominatrix Camille has let me know i will come to enjoy feeling a cock pulsating inside me.
while not on female hormones yet we have discussed HRT as well as SRS. using breast pumps and nipple suckers Mistres has told me my nipples are developing nicely. She also sees me as a 'c-cup'.
should one day i look down and slip my fingers with their painted sculpted nails inside my panties to touch my own vagina.....with my feminine light within burning brightly i will close my eyes and think of Dominatrix Camille.... knowing it was my Mistress DLC who gave me the gift of femininity. peace, alyssa p.s. cissy if you happen to read this i wanted to add you have a lovely appearance and your nails are to die for. i would politely suggest it looks like it's time to start shopping for some 'clitty' jewelry, a metal chastity cage often brings with it a docile level of contentment.
What is a gurl exactly . do please explain. for example is it like the term boi . Bois can be very beautiful ...but do not transition
hello adele;thank you for your comment...free of any doubt i can say Mistress DLC is unlike any Woman i have ever met. often i feel that it is like She is reading my mind and clearly She knows what this gurl needs and wants. alyssa
this is a lovely post and it really gives us an insight into you and your dreams for the future. i wish you the very best of fortune on the road ahead - and i know that you have the best guide possible with Mistress DLC.
hi cissy, thanks for your comment i enjoyed learning more about you...not sure what you mean about your other comments gone missing...perhaps the admin can help...
wishing you all the best in regards to your introduction letter to Mistress DLC. here's hoping you too will become a slave gurl in training in Her garden.
Dear Miss Alyssa,
Thank you very much for your welcome reply .I have noted all that you tell me about your journey so far . You see i subscribe to the thinking that i am on a journey where it is better to travel hopefully than to arrive .As i may have said i transittioned in 2005 and i am a woman according to the laws of Britain . This took years but as you see i kept my clitty ,so far . Men seem to find attraction even when we have a large clitty .
I live a normal life but coming from a genetic male i have strange urges which is not new to me or unique . I have been happy to forego living these urges (A kinky world where i whore for men and am owned .) as not being part of my womanly world .
Bang all that reticence changed when i came upon DLC . Here was a chance to be trained genuinely and permanently . My journey hence forth is being trained as i say and becoming a slave , property and a kinky prostitute .Living with girls like those who are under your Mistress .
That decision has been made and i will not turn back ,' the road less travelled by .'
If i am fortunate Mistress may look agreeably on my condition and progress me but now i must submit my case to her .This is very formidable for me .
Currently Alyssa i remain here but tell me please where are all the messages i have submitted so far ??
If you care to email me here is my address ....firstname.lastname@example.org or is this not allowed ?
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