with words gone unspoken the t-girl below in the Pride Parade is speaking the language of transformation....
(i luv the swirling band moving across her dress.)
chatting with tara it was a simple comment. i should preface this by saying weeks and months having turned into years as DarkLady Camille's property we both have learned to have the vocabulary of slave-gurls....
i mentioned that i needed to hop into the shower as i hadn't shaved my underarms and legs in a day and a half...the statement one of feminine grooming was of the language of transformation. ( i should add i can't go without being smooth-shaven. to be kept soft and hairless has become a need.) tara spoke about how she had a discipline-session coming up shortly. 'session work' is part of the vocabulary of a BDSM slave.
we both had a level of concern as tara hadn't yet heard from Mistress that afternoon. in our time with Dominatrix Camille we've bonded with the Woman. always obedient and caring sometimes bordering on being reverent we look to Mistress with a deep affection. it is the language of transformation... for it is She that is giving us the gift of femininity that had merged with slavery in our transitioning.
femininity with slavery now stirs my inner-being....
i need to bridge back to yesterdays post...it was of Mistresses and maids and leveraging Female authority to bring male transformation.
prior to meeting Mistress DLC thoughts of transformation were primarily a fantasy-wanking episode....perfecting the art of edging as a pursuit i'd envision myself as a full-breasted woman submissive to another Woman.
i should note back then i held out hope of a Woman taking me on... perfectly happy to transform me as Her lesbian t-girl...
i would occasionally come along on the internet to find males that wanted to transition...kayla autumn ward was one example...
a full GRS post-op kayla these days...
what also started to emerge was the access to sites of Dominatrices and Mistresses. a genre in the BDSM scene was developing that spoke to being dominated into femininity.
through submitting to Mistresses it told me that males were being transformed...
coming to live in the 'real' world as transgendered Women...
the transformation into...
the lovely tanya dawn...
seen thru the prism of the Law of Attraction transitioning at its core is a mindset. If one has a desire to transform then all they'll ever get is the frustration of staying in desire. i'm not talking about desire as unbridled lust...goodness knows i have used many images over-sexualizing the t-girl experience on this forum blog.
in desiring to change one has to believe they already are what they want to become. having transitioned many Dominatrix Camille knows this...it is one reason why She treats us like we already are Her gurls. from the onset Mistress has kept me in that space of being alyssa. it comes thru on our skype feed...all of us considered ourselves to already be t-girls. many a morning the opening address from me and the others is 'hello girls'...
for example sure she may not be the prettiest...but in her heart she believes she is a Woman...
just before connecting with Mistress DLC i happened to join this site...at 150,000 hits per month there was activity...it also introduced for the first time the idea of being on female hormones or herbals.
there were a handful of gurls committed to being enslaved...yet it couldn't compare to what Dominatrix Camille brings.
rachelle these days...apparently she has a thing for black cock's...
the site had a slogan...'undoing years of miseducation and programming...'
one of the enslaved gurls....chrissy
"....chrissy has not only been doing her Assignments with great success...."
....the gurl at work...doing her domestic chores...
"....chrissy has dedicated her service to her Superior which has brought great fortune in her life. She is accepted and nurtured by her family and that warms Our hearts to no end!....Bringing girls into their best is what We are here for, and chrissy represents exactly that. We're so proud of her!....'
again Mistress DLC in my opinion is far above what they offered...
bridging back to the language of transformation we'll use one of the sites mantra's....
'how does a gurl properly serve?....With all her thoughts. With all her actions. With all her intent...'
i would add with Dominatrix Camille establishing the mind-set of a gurl...
Mistress has prepared me to be the kind of t-girl slave that can expect to one day have a dominant Master...
hopefully later this year teeming with female hormones i'll look forward to serving the man in my life...3 months into it i have already taken on the role of a pretty and submissive gurl to a man that has been 'courting' me...for me it is what i mean by the language of transformation...because of Mistress DarkLady i know how to act and what to say...
Mark treats me like the gurl i am...again as Dominatrix Camille has taught...when you believe you already are what She has made of you...you'll become it...he compliments me and tells me i'm pretty...he's kind enough to listen when i talk about the girlish things in my life...
Mark does't dwell on it yet he has certain expectations as to my sexual orientation....it was Mistress DLC that gradually weened me off thinking i'd be with a Woman one day...
it was as though She completely 'scrubbed' my mind of such thoughts...She decided it is for the best i have a alpha male one day...
i've told Mark i'll look forward to pleasing him...hopefully this summer we'll get together...I'm thinking Pride week...i'd love to feel the bulk of his weight pressing down on my body...his gruff hands caressing my soft skin...his meaty fingers clutching at my small boobies and lovely nipples...it will feel sooo nice to have him on top of me between my legs...while i absorb every thrust of his manhood as i'm being bred...
i suppose the words are part of the language of transformation...
'oh fuck me Master...yes....yes ...Ohhhh your cock....ohhhhh ....ohhhhh.....oh i'm so wet...please come inside me...i luv being your gurl...and need to feel your cream.'
i know this....when it happens i'll be thinking about my Mistress....DarkLady Camille...if it wasn't for Her i'd have never come out as a transgendered Woman....peace, alyssa