This really is such a beautiful and blossoming site. So much credit to alyssa for such wonderful reflection and images in her narratives that give so much support to others like myself who are still at the early stages of my journey.
When looking at a comment to my earlier post i saw listed as a similar post high heels...a DLC requirement. w/pics . i debated whether i should comment or post, but since the post was almost 2 yrs old, thought the best way to perhaps bring it forward was through something new.
As alluded to in my earlier post Heel Envy - For the love of shoes i had posted a fetish pair of locking strap high heels. There was a quote from alyssa in her high heel post that really stood out at me. it was :
One of the great things that even if i wanted to.... i can't run away...not dressed like how I am wearing these high heels'...
That brought black a flash of memories to my late childhood / early teens. i know this is something i was born with, because even way back then, far earlier than i have any exposure to adult or fetish material that highlighted FemDom or forced feminization fantasies, i always was excited by the idea of being captured and dressed. Perhaps it came from the playground games where the girls chased the boys and perhaps, reflecting now, even though i wanted to be caught, i should not have resisted as much. But i digress. In quite moments, i would imagine being caught and feminized. Being put into dresses and heels, make up, turned into Barbie of sorts, but part of the fantasy involved the heels being "locked on."
So the words alyssa wrote are the same words that were going through my head decades ago. It was so hard for me to understand back then given how young i was to have these thoughts, but the best i can tell, is even then, i loved and desired the feminine form, and my mind was finding a way to embrace femininity without the masculine pretense and form self-sabotaging.
The truth is i love heels. i love the shape they give to my legs, the added sway they seem to make in my hips, the clacking on floors, but most of all, they so often are so beautifully shaped they are works of art. They also above all are pure feminine. Along with that, as alyssa expressed, i am acutely aware the shortening of my stride as well as particularly for me, i cannot run, and what Cis-Women may not be aware, for those of us in extended size, descending stairs definitely is more challenging. i find myself almost in a side-step cross over like in ice-skating for some of the shorter treads force that. Practice, practice, practice.